From losing my bus pass to being scammed out of some of my money, to my USB stick physically breaking and my laptop crashing and losing ALL my files including what I've done of my dissertation so far, recorded podcast episodes and all that good stuff and much, much more- safe to say this week has been one of the most stressful weeks of my life...so far. (Little Simpsons movie reference for your headtop). It's mad how many things can go belly up in the space of 5/6 days.
Situations like this used to happen now and again, like when I was studying my A levels and there was a leakage in my house which destroyed four months of revision material days before my final exams. But since starting uni these situations seem to be happening more frequently, especially when you add group assigments and external commitments to the mix.
And all I can say is...
Stress is shit and the painful stress headaches aint it yall.
How do you manage stress? And to be specific stress that is caused by everything turning into a shitshow and going wrong, despite how hard you try? I just go to sleep.
Maybe stuff my face, cry.
Or maybe not cry but hold back the tears and tell myself to get it together.
I'm a very teary eyed person...makes my name seem all the more suitable. However, I don't get angry easily.
And from what I've seen most people react in two ways to stressful situations like the one above.
It seems like 99.9% of people get pissed and curse and then there's me who has a break down. Although, I've yet to shed any stress tears this week.
I have to say writing all of this is lowkey making me feel better which I find strange because I'm not doing anything special just typing how I feel.
But as I was scrolling through the TL and seeing all these young women accomplish great things I couldn't help but compare myself because it's like I can't even find my feet because everytime I try to do something it goes wrong.
A tiny voice in my head is trying to be heard and tries to tell me that "You're never gonna prosper, look how you put your all into something and you plan ahead and things still turn out badly!"
But fortunately, there's a much louder, authorative voice in my mind which tells me to "Calm down and that all of these setbacks are gonna be interesting to watch when they make a movie about your life in twenty years."
I guess the main thing I try to remember when I experience moments like this is that, it's easy to be motivated when things are going well. Champions stay motivated when things go to shit and everyone else breaks. But it's sooo hard, especially when everyone seems to be doing so well, but it has been said a thousand times before...Social media is just a highlight reel and you don't know how many setbacks someone might've had before they got to where they are now. I truly think setbacks like this build character and teach you lessons. Like I can admit there are certain things which I know I should have done which essentially would have prevented certain situations from happening but it's too late now.
Anyway check out this short video about famous failures!
Situations like this used to happen now and again, like when I was studying my A levels and there was a leakage in my house which destroyed four months of revision material days before my final exams. But since starting uni these situations seem to be happening more frequently, especially when you add group assigments and external commitments to the mix.
And all I can say is...
Stress is shit and the painful stress headaches aint it yall.
How do you manage stress? And to be specific stress that is caused by everything turning into a shitshow and going wrong, despite how hard you try? I just go to sleep.
Maybe stuff my face, cry.
Or maybe not cry but hold back the tears and tell myself to get it together.
I'm a very teary eyed person...makes my name seem all the more suitable. However, I don't get angry easily.
And from what I've seen most people react in two ways to stressful situations like the one above.
It seems like 99.9% of people get pissed and curse and then there's me who has a break down. Although, I've yet to shed any stress tears this week.
I have to say writing all of this is lowkey making me feel better which I find strange because I'm not doing anything special just typing how I feel.
But as I was scrolling through the TL and seeing all these young women accomplish great things I couldn't help but compare myself because it's like I can't even find my feet because everytime I try to do something it goes wrong.
A tiny voice in my head is trying to be heard and tries to tell me that "You're never gonna prosper, look how you put your all into something and you plan ahead and things still turn out badly!"
But fortunately, there's a much louder, authorative voice in my mind which tells me to "Calm down and that all of these setbacks are gonna be interesting to watch when they make a movie about your life in twenty years."
I guess the main thing I try to remember when I experience moments like this is that, it's easy to be motivated when things are going well. Champions stay motivated when things go to shit and everyone else breaks. But it's sooo hard, especially when everyone seems to be doing so well, but it has been said a thousand times before...Social media is just a highlight reel and you don't know how many setbacks someone might've had before they got to where they are now. I truly think setbacks like this build character and teach you lessons. Like I can admit there are certain things which I know I should have done which essentially would have prevented certain situations from happening but it's too late now.
Anyway check out this short video about famous failures!
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